Thursday, April 26, 2007

Conversations on crack

Most of the time, I'm the most laid-back, calmest person you will ever meet.....the rest of the time, I'm like a four year old hopped-up on sugar, or crack...whatever. Here are some tidbits of a conversation I had while experiencing the latter.

Me: "A person just ran past the door."
K: "What? Who?"
Me: "A person....well....a small person."
K: "Huh?"
Me: "A small child-like person. Wait...there they go again! This is a university, what is a small, child-like person doing in the hallway?"
K: "Uh...?" (I do that to people a lot.)

Tuesday, April 24, 2007


Late sunday, I started my period....everything seems to be normal and boy, am I relieved to get my body back.

Some random stuff to talk about

Since the beginning of this whole pregnancy thing, I've been talking to my younger sister, who has had her share of crappy boyfriends and got pregnant with a slacker boyfriend, therefore preparing my mother for the disappointment of daughters who can't seem to do things in the appropriate, neighbor aproved, order. (Yeah, I'm knocked up, at least I know who the father is, unlike those bitches on Maury, which by the way is so incredibly sad and I can't even imagine what would motivate a person to do that on tv.)

This is the day of run-on sentences.

Aaanyway, we talk on the phone nearly every day now which is something that rarely happened even when we shared a bedroom. (Or maybe because we shared a bedroom) We have talked about everything under the sun and something came up the other day that I wanted to share.

I thought there was something living in our closet that stole toys when I was little. Things disappeared and I never saw them again and I was convinced that some sort of troll or gnome or something equally scary lived in our closet and ate toys. I was actually afraid of the closet, but never told my parents. No joke. I had a pretty vivid imagination as a child, but I had completely forgotten about the toy eating gnome until my sister and I were discussing some of the toys I bought for my nephew, just for the sole purpose of annoying the crap out of my sister. (yeah, I'm that kind of aunt) She admitted that if her son receives a toy that breaks or if he loses pieces to a game that is then unplayable, she will throw it away. (Holy crap, that's what mom did!) All this time, in the back of my mind, there lived a scary gnome that ate toys like dryers gnomes eat socks, when in really it was just my mom! (Or was it?)

Sunday, April 22, 2007


So, my HCG levels have practically bottomed baby. After a day and a half of tears and soul searching, I think I'm ok about it. My body still thinks its pregnant, which is the hardest part to deal with. I thought most of it may have been in my imagination until I met a friend for lunch today and she exclaimed, "Good God, what's going on with your BOOBS!!" So, yeah, they are definitely bigger. Damnit. Now, I guess I just wait for my body to get with the program and go back to normal. I'm due for my period this week....keeping my fingers crossed. I know that no one is really reading this, but it helps to say it out loud, I think I'm going to take my nurse's advice and take advantage of the counseling services on campus. I just think that talking out the events of the last few months with someone objective could be helpful. I still don't know why I was getting positives on the HPT tests I was taking...if anyone does read this, please be careful with First Response Early Results Home Pregnancy tests. They can read hormone levels way below what even their website will tell you.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Ok, so here's the latest....

I have come to the realization that my uterus is a freak of nature, there is no other explanation for the positive and negative HPTs, the low HGC levels and the utter lack of period. I'm about to make the nurse at school cry, I know it. She has no idea why I can still get a positive on an HPT, early results test or not. I took a pee test at the office and sure enough it was negative even though I had taken a HPT this morning which gave me, for the first time, two really dark pink lines.
*Yay, no more faint lines to confuse the issue even more!*
She drew blood for another beta test, neither one of us has any idea what it will show. I find out tomorrow.....something....though probably nothing resembling an answer. *sigh* No matter what the result, I'm going to ask for a copy of the report and take it to the health dept. Hopefully, that will at least get me a medical card so that I can go to a real doctor. Keepin' my fingers crossed and I'll keep ya posted.

Saturday, April 14, 2007


After the bummer of the last entry, I thought I would talk about something lighter while we wait. (I don't know anything more at this point, though I have applied for a medical card so that I can see a doctor, which I need to do no matter what.)

I'm going to follow a format that Jen uses often to talk about some of my favorite tv shows.......

Gilmore Girls-
Still don't know if they are coming back next season....I'll miss them if they don't, but this season has sucked and everyone knows it...Wouldn't it be nice if they could end the show on a high note rather than a crappy one? One more season anyone?

"Damn, Jack!" I knew Audrey was still alive, I didn't expect her to be back this season. Hee. Well, this is new. Two missons in 24 hours or a set-up for the 24 movie? I don't know about most people, but I'm really enjoying the ride.

Grey's Anatomy-
I took the quiz on the website and apparently I'm an Addison, strong and confident but unlucky in love. How did they know? :) I am totally annoyed with the idea of George and Izzie together, not because I don't like Izzie, but because I actually like Callie. Come on, a smart, sexy woman that isn't a size 4, what's not to love? They need Callie to balance Mere and her scary skinnyness. Besides, what's up with those frown lines she suddenly devoloped next to her mouth? Is anyone else freaked out by this? Isn't she supposed to be 26 or so? The rest of the interns look like teenagers in comparison!

I'm having some doubts about Juliet, but not the doubts the producers would like me to have. I think she has an agenda, but I don't think it's Ben's agenda. There was something about the look on her face after Ben gave her her the look on my face when I have finally lost my patience and my temper. I think she has her own plan...not sure what yet. Jack annoys the crap out of me and has for some time now. His "my way or the highway" attitude is really getting old. I've never thought he and Kate should be together, he would never be able to accept her or understand her past.