So it turns out...

that D was really serious about the marriage thing, which I had begun to suspect. Even if I loved him, how could that possibly make it better? I feel terrible for him, but I know it would be worse for both of us if I cut off our friendship. He's in love with me and I don't know what to do about it or if there is anything TO do. I'm usually the girl with the advice, I'm the one with answers, but I'm fresh out right now.